She's so purty!










Hot hot hot!


I hate the damn weather.





Well hello. Anyone revising?
I am aware that after 6days, examinations will start.
I'm feeling a mixture of happiness and fear.
Happy because finally the year's ending and we get to RELAX.
Fearful because I am not properly armed and it'll be awkward for I might be spending the first 5 minutes brain farting.
And I am afraid I'd have to throw in the white flag and surrender.
Or I may be so tired due to major mugging the previous night I did not have a good night sleep and use the time given for completing the test to complete my sleep.


And I will pray during examination, hoping God will help me.
I am not sure how God can help, but I sure hope He's willing to.




I kind of wonder what others are doing past few weeks.
Were they studying?
Were they slacking?


I kind of really hope I pass with beautiful 'A's on my result slip. But this hope of mine seem so close, yet so far to reach.



The best way is to turn around, and walk away.
I am a very competitive person. And I LOVE to win.
But that does not mean when I am defeated, I become a sore loser and accuse you for cheating or whatever.
I feel that it is plain stupid and underhanded as you are, actually, the one cheating.
This applies in most circumstances. During a competition, conflict between two or more friends, family, whoever.
I was a sore loser, but I don't exactly accuse anybody for cheating. I just give attitude to my competitor, which is wrong and I tend to regret deeply afterward.
Turning my back towards a useless, trivial matter makes me realize that I am actually avoiding unhappiness.
I don't like unhappiness, and I believe nobody likes it.
Pride is one of my weakness, and stubbornness and senselessness and blah blah blah. Loads more.
I cannot be flawless. I cannot please everyone. I can only make myself happy by making wise choices, and giving up bad ones.

No one can make somebody change. You yourself have to be willing to do so or else no one can help you. Not even God as your heart is closed to everyone.

I sometimes like to keep to myself and think.

I guess I am still improving, I still need reminders to get rid of unreasonableness.

I WANT I WANT I WANT!

I WANT PRETTY ACCESSORIES AND CLOTHES!

Yes I guess you can say that I am someone who loves pretty things and is MATERIALISTIC.
Nope, not something to be proud of.

Especially when I like nature a lot a lot, but because of my greed and lust, I buy loads and loads of random crap which I do not need.
What a waste of resources!


I believe that God created everything we needed and, well, man modified it and sadly, resources are wasted for our love for things that we already have, but we want it because it is nicer.
I cannot criticize anybody as I sometimes melt when I see something I like.
I need to improve. T.T





EXAMS' COMIN', GUYS! EVERYONE THAT PUT IN EFFORT I HOPE YOU GET GREAT GRADES AND GET INTO A GOOD CLASS!

Remember, you reap what you sow. :)

I am usually bored at home. And I don't do my homework. I use FACEBOOK, like most people.
I want to score well for my exam and get into a good class next year.



"You only fail when you give up."
"Everybody has special strengths and flaws." -Sherlyn Leo's blog.




I love hair bands!
I saw this teacher from school (I think she's a temporary teacher) wearing a blue color pearl hair band. And she look fabulous.


So today me and my sister used the computer together and chatted while drinking 'teh c beng'.
Yeah, I admit I do have an awesome sister.
Went to popular with her today and bought loads of stationary.


I HATE MY PUFFFFFFFY EYES! :(

Que je t'aime by DoraLovey from deviantART

ZERO GRAVITY.

Life is like gravity. Whenever you want to soar higher, it pulls you back each time.


Hi people.
Bad things happen everyday, be it huge or tiny ones.
But do keep in mind that great things do happen daily too.
Think positive.
(Yes I am trying hard to manipulate myself to be more positive and you should all do it if you are pessimists cause I am.)


THERE IS COMMON TEST TOMORROW AND I TRIED DOING ONE EXERCISE ON MY ASSESSMENT BOOK BUT THERE ARE A TON OF QUESTIONS I DO NOT UNDERSTAND!

I'm gonna cry tomorrow during math common test and keep worrying about it during the weekends and will have a terrible break.




I am somebody that usually don't think twice before acting. Sometimes it is good but most of the times it makes the situation blooooooody.
It always make me regret after those words exited my mouth and wish it can be stuffed right back.

Someone told me that I am someone that may beat around the bushes at times, but in the end I will still spill the beans. Is that a good thing? I don't know.


I have been staying up late these few days and I am sooooooo wornnnnnnnnnn outtttttttttttttttt...


Ciao, everybody!
People that are having examinations soon, good luck! :)

Picture by psychicLexa from deviantART.

As usual, I went home right away after school.
Will be going out with mom and sister later on. For now I'll just spend my time away on the computer. No I am not going to do my work yet because I am very sleepy. :/


I guess I'm very emotional today. And it sucks. Big time.


I like knowing that I am good at something so I will not feel like a useless loser.
I am not creative, not clever, not beautiful, not kindhearted.
I am discontented, gloomy, sorrowful at times.
I try my best to be positive. It does work at times but when it doesn't, I will throw tantrum at people out of frustration.
I don't mean to, but I feel like I left my body when I am maddened.
Rage is my weakness.



Okay, let's talk about my future right now.

Next year I'll be a secondary 3 student and I am still deciding which subjects to choose.
History or Geography?
A math or POA?
I should just let nature take it's course.

I'M STARVING!

BOYCOTT
[boi-kot]

–verb (used with object)

1. to combine in abstaining from, or preventing dealings with, as a means of intimidation or coercion: to boycott a store.

2. to abstain from buying or using: to boycott foreign products.

–noun

3. the practice of boycotting.

4. an instance of boycotting.

I am going to boycott my computer one day.
But I can't do it because I can't bear to leave it alone.
But it's an important exam!
Should I or should I not?



By the way, I am still thinking of whether to go to 3e1 or 3e2.
But then the thing is what if I cannot get into both classes? Or worse, I get laterally transferred to NA. (No offense whatsoever)


I am THIRTEEN DAYS away from EOY and I am still slacking almost everyday. At least I studied a little today.
But at this rate, I will never pass with flying colors. I'd prolly only get just passes.

I am going to write out my plan for exam, and hopefully I will follow them.


Before exam, I should:

1. Go home study instead of going out till late at night.
2. No more facebook, twitter or games.
3. Pack my room.
4. Revise every subject, not only the ones I am weak in.
5. If I don't know how to do a question, consult somebody that knows, like a teacher or sister.
6. Memorize letter formats for Chinese and English.
7. Do more science questions.
8. Must must must revise history and geography.
9. Sleep early.


During the exam, I should:

1. Check, double check.
2. Manage time well and keep track of it.
3. Skip difficult questions, get back to it later.
4. Do not panic. Be calm.
5. DO NOT SLEEP IN EXAM.
6. Sleep early.
7. Don't overstress myself.
8. Don't think of other things. Focus on exams.


After exams, I will:
1. HAVE FUN!
2. Relax!
3. Don't worry about my results yet!
4. USE THE COMPUTER!


I hate the before and during plan. And I am kind of hoping it works cause I usually will go play instead. :/




I guess school today is fun.

This morning I was kind of tired so I kind of daydreamed the whole first period.
After recess I am more awake so I kind of listened during English lesson.
We did sewing during home econs and I think my file holder is ruined by myself.
We met the Australians today during enrichment. They are AWESOME.
I love their way of teaching. It is interesting. I really enjoyed it.


I guess this concludes my day at school.
Boring, I know.
Ya partly cause I am anti social. :/
Not that I want to be boring, I just don't like to socialize with people.
And I am someone that is easily irritated, even if it is just somebody touching my pens without my permission. I mean, it belongs to me. If you want it, buy la! But that's so unfriendly so I kept quiet. And I really hate it when I am very busy and somebody keeps talking to me. But its rude to ask somebody to shut up so I, again, kept quiet. But when I am extremely bored I will keep pestering Carol or Sherlynn or whoever unlucky cause sitting beside or near me.
I have a weird character. :(

Do you guys think I should try out other blogging spots instead of blogger?

I am gonna treat blogging more seriously because I have no where else to dump my vents at.


So I just had my humanities test this morning and I guess I did okay. But I definitely need to study hard to get beautiful 'A's written on my result slip for end-of-year examination. After school I went to Yoshinoya with Linda and Carol and had lunch. After that I came home as I might be going out with mommy at 7pm. I cannot say today is a good day because my mind was occupied by something that had happened few days back and I still cannot get over it. Though I tried my hardest to get it off my mind by focusing on playing floor ball during pe, it did not leave me. Instead, I got so freaked out by that incident I almost cried on that spot.
I am really sorry that I seemed so moody during school and probably made my friends a little moody as well. I tried my best to stop worrying as it should be my imagination. Oh god I am going crazy.


There are no free meals given without having to pay consequences. I learned that the hard way. We all have to pay for want we want, using what we possesses like money when you are buying clothes, food or things we want. But sometimes we have to pay something greater than money. Something like happiness. We have to give up happiness for our own selfish acts at times. We may even end up hurting people we love. But when the harm is done, we can't do anything when we regret.


I wish I can blog more but I don't feel like it cause of this big thing that blew up my entire world.








Easier said than done.