Super shag.

What do you yearn for?


I want a camera! :(
I want to capture beautiful scenes.
I want to capture the memories.
I will go check on a few cameras before getting them.
Research is important.


What do you love?
No, what is LOVE?



Am not going to care no more.
I am no longer interested.
And I don't see why I should get involved.
I am not going to interfere.
I can't, shouldn't, won't.

How true!


I love cupcakes! \m/

I just want to know that you are here.



Maybe I should follow the rules so much.
I should be free to fly, free to dream.
I shouldn't stay and be a statue, and never being able to see the world.
I should spend everyday with happiness.
Be it alone, or with peers.
Because even when I am alone, I know God is by my side, enjoying beautiful places with me.



I won't be able to contact you yet I do not know.
Why didn't you tell me?
What is wrong with you?
I am also a friend, you know.
Gosh you sure are an ass.


I need to spend more time with my friends, instead of rotting at home using computer.


I realise there is a change in the way I blog.
Previously my aim is to bring laughter.
Now I guess I am just expressing my feelings.
I don't really know, but it feels kinda good.



Don't speak a word. I don't wish to hear anything. I just want to stay here, and stop time so I get more time to remember your face.

I don't wish to return to be a kid.
Because then, I won't realize how much I will gain after pain.
I won't experience love, joy, sadness, pain, anger, bitterness, laughter and a lot more feelings that can't be expressed in words.
I have the abilities to do what I want. Not just depend on my parents to help me complete tasks that I am not able to complete, like a child.
I like to take up challenges, to complete things I thought I couldn't.
I can do anything I want if I want to.


I want to live my dream. And I mean it. I am not a kid that give up because I can't do it.
I will persevere and keep trying.
I know I can do it. Because I not a weakling that falls down and stays there.
I will stand back up.


Thousands and thousands of people may doubt me. But God will never doubt me.
The Almighty God can create miracles. He can aid me when I need him. All He need is my prayers. He will be here. Do not doubt him, for He has never doubted you.


I wish I can be like the angel that helped me when I needed help.
When I needed care, concern and comfort.
She is an angel God gave me. I know it.
She has flaws, too. But her imperfection is what makes her so awesome.
Even though she has much to improve on, she is still perfect as she is.
She seems so carefree, even though she have lots to be troubled of.
She told me much about God, too.
It is she who constantly remind me that God will not leave me, God is here, God create miracles, God is powerful, and most importantly, God loves me.
Because of her, I know that God is here. And forever not leaving.
I want God to bless her will happiness. She deserve it.
She have done God very, very proud. I know it.
She might be disappointed in herself before, might be in despair, might be in anger.
But she always remember that God is by her side.
She is wonderful. I am so lucky to have her as my best friend.
Although I have to pity her future boyfriend/husband.
She eats a lot. :X
But to be able to eat is your luck. Right? :P


Her awesomeness:
-Her hair is gorgeous.
-She has nice fair skin.
-Huge doll-like eyes.
-Awesome dance moves. Okay maybe not very good but to me it is awesome.
-Her own style of dressing.
-Her sense of humor.
-Eat a lot.
-Is always happy.
-Not flexible at all, just like me. :X
-Always saying what I wanted to say before me.
-Her funniness when we are webcamming.
-Always helping me when needed.
-Short. Just like me.
-Her determination to complete stuffs.
-Her laziness. Just like me.
-Love the song Perfect by Hedley, just like me, again.
-Going for detentions with me even when she don't need to go.
-She is forgiving.
-Many more.

I am glad she is my best friend and I am hers.
I hope she will study hard and come up to express, like how she said she will in her blog, and we can study together. I can help you along the way.

I hope I can always be there when she need me, and she will always be here when I need her.
Even if we quarrel, fight, argue, whatever, I wish we can continue to be friends, forever.

Her hair is always in a mess. Her voice is always loud&noisy.
Her height is same as me.
We love the same song, Perfect. We love the idol, Logan Lerman.
We love Caucasian.
She love to last minute, being stubborn, being choosy, being petty, &being proud.

-My hair is in a mess so you can be prettier than me.
-I am loud and noisy, so are you! :X
-Logan Lerman FTW!
-Caucasian make me think of Chris Matthews Rider.
-I cannot deny I can stubborn, choosy, petty and proud. But I am not last minute already! At least not a lot. :X


The above following person that I am referring to is RACHEL HATHAWAY!






Even though I am picky, petty, proud, noisy, she still love me as a best friend.
And I love her as a best friend too. XD


'I Rove Ryou'!
It means I love you in my own language. :)

Will not cut bangs until I feel like it.


Because when the hairdresser too short you will live with hideous hair for a week or more until it grow back to normal length.

I have crazy hair-do today in school.
After my bath when I am home I look fab. -.-
Wrong timing, hair. Very wrong.



I hate it that people have to make people unhappy by vandalizing tables about a person's imperfection.
Because there are such people, many committed suicide because they cannot take the hurt and pain, and not knowing who did it and reason behind it.
I wonder why these people have to be so uncivilized.


I didn't know why I will feel so discouraged out of sudden.
but it does not matter. I will be fine. I'm sure. God will be here.

I didn't believe in love.
But I saw this real cute couple.
They met through Facebook, and after sometime they started to webcam each other.
And got together in the end.
Honestly, I think this type of love will not last.
But before I know they met through Facebook, I thought they were so sweet I'd have died from drowning in honey.
They seemed so in love.
They meant every i love you' and every 'i miss you'.
I am starting to realize, love is not as weak as I thought.
It can overcome distance.
It can overcome hatred.
It can overcome your weaknesses.
It can overcome your fears.
It can overcome your pain.
It can overcome everything.


I have not find my half apple yet.
But that doesn't mean I won't stop looking.
True love cannot be convicted.
Love comes naturally. You can't force it to happen.

Actually, I don't really care that much.
I don't even know why I should.
Somehow or another, I feel that I am actually all alone.
And I am supposed to be alone.
Because of me being selfish, I made everyone in my life suffer.
Without me everyone's life will be much better.

I don't think I can ever tell anyone my darkest secret.
Because I dont want to trust anyone at all.
I'll just end up betrayed, alone and bitter.

Some people look like they've got the best things in life.
But honestly, it's not important.
Happiness is the best thing in life.
Do you have happiness?
Are you satisfied?


I wonder, what do I really want in my life?
Do I want money?
Do I want beauty?
Do I want to be smart?
What do I really want?
What should I have to be happy?

I know I dislike her. But how can I make you understand, that this is not what life is, when I myself can't stay on the path?
I feel so useless.

On this day, God wants you to know...

... that it is time to finally forgive yourself. You've carried the guilt, the shame for long enough. You've kept your wounds open for long enough. The time has come to let go, to heal. Keep the lessons and let the pain heal. Yes, you know what we are talking about it.

I don't even know I was guilty, until I saw this.
I recalled, I realised.
I felt bad for forgetting that God will forever be with me.
Why did I think I am alone?
I have so many people that love me, yet I did not remember.
I wished that I can open my heart, and tell someone about my guilt, towards almost everyone.
For not being a friend when needed.
For throwing my temper at people.
For forgetting a friend.
For giving up on my friend.
For being such a slack.
For being such a let down.
For gossiping.
For not being a good best friend.
For not having to think in your shoes.
For not remembering why I should be guilty of.



Maybe it is too late.
But there are more things that I should look forward to.
I shouldn't be being upset and disappoint in others and myself and staying at square one forever.
If it is just not meant to be, so be it.
I cannot force it to work, when it will never.

Sometimes I think people with bright smile outside have more unhappiness than people with a frown.


How I wish I never knew you.

"Have the courage to say no. Have the courage to face the truth. Do the right thing because ity is right. These are the magic keys to living your life with integrity."



If life can be a ted bit better, I wouldn't have felt so helpless.
It sure is great to know God is always here to help.


Somehow, I wished I have time to think.
Everything just happen too quickly I can't seem to think properly.



I think even she is better for you.
I will start to avoid you, and you will forget me, and we go separate ways.
It is the best for you and me.



You are hot like Mexico.


Angell.