I am upset. Yes I wish somebody is by my side now.


I got promoted to 3 Express.
I was, initially, happy. But then I looked inside. What a mess! Tons of numbers underlined in black beside most of it wrote D7.
Oh great. My dream burst right in front of me. I keep hoping that it will come true but sadly it didn't.
Yes I am lucky to get into express. But what I what is not only that.
I'm going to pray extra hard and do more miles than others to get God's help.
Because I know I cannot make it without Him.
I wish I can touch Him for Him to help. I am so desperate for help now I can just do anything.
More homework. 100 isn't a problem. Really. But I'm thinking where to get them though.


I'll clear all my assessment books. All.
Even primary school's because I lack resources. :X


Good luck to me. :/

I'M SUPER DUPER CRAZY AND NERVOUS!
Will be getting my results tomorrow and I am extremely nervous I will drop to NA!

I did not go for dance because of cramps and headache. :/
I kind of am glad but guilty for not turning up.



I will be praying very hard tonight.
I hope everyone else will do well! And hope you all will get into the class you want!


You are unique and precious. When you try to value yourself for being the best in something, you are bound to fail. Even Olympic champions are the best only for a few years. You are precious to God not because there is no one better than you, but because you are a unique creation of mind, body and spirit, there is no one like you, and that is exactly what makes you so indescribably precious. :)




I've done some of my e learning.

I'M SUPER DUPER CRAZY AND NERVOUS!


I did not go for dance because of cram

truths will be uncovered.



In one day we can discover a lot of things we didn't know from all sorts of ways.
Choices were also made, that prevent or pull us closer to the truth.
Decide, choose, stand firm and do not change. I want to be like that. Sadly I don't do that. I keep changing and I cannot stick to my choices.
I know too much, but yet, too little as well.

I want too much. I ask for too much. I don't deserve this much. I don't want too much. I want a simple life.
Yes, so I found out I am somebody that can't live without drama.
So I am going to start afresh. Or at least, hope to start afresh.
Isolating myself from the crowd can be a good idea but there are more choices and I believe I can leave this for God to decide. I can count on Him.



I will pray every night. It's a vow.

I found out I am not as innocent as I was when I was a child. I've seen too much of cruelty in life and I am no longer having fun.


I wish I am clear-headed too.
I wish to develop my own style.
I wish for God to hear and help me accomplish my dreams and prayers.
I wish I will never make a enormous drama again.
I wish for world peace.
I wish for global warming to stop.
I wish that tomorrow's dance practice will be fun.
I wish for more people to be happy.
I wish to spread God's words.
I wish to smile more and be happy.



I should really end this post soon. I'm having dance practice tomorrow. I'm not particularly excited but I still have to attend so, good luck to me.

LOVE YOUR ENEMIES.

INSPIRATION[in-spuh-rey-shuhn]

1. an inspiring or animating action or influence: I cannot write poetry without inspiration.

2. something inspired, as an idea.

3. a result of inspired activity.

4. a thing or person that inspires.

5. Theology

a. a divine influence directly and immediately exerted upon the mind or soul.

b. the divine quality of the writings or words of a person so influenced.

6. the drawing of air into the lungs; inhalation.

7. the act of inspiring; quality or state of being inspired.

"I'm still freaking scared about my EOY results." -Rachel's blog.
Me too! Good luck to you, Rach. :)

"I DON'T LIKE MY CCA. I DON'T LIKE THIS SCHOOL. I DON'T LIKE THAT PARTICULAR TEACHER. " -Rachel's blog.

"I always pray for life to be easy and now I must pray for myself to be stronger."Rachel's blog.


I love quoting. :)



Life had been quite boring lately. All I did was dance, going to school for dance or check my exam papers, sleep, use the computer, a little e learning work, eat, and other random crap.

I'm quite awake now, and have nothing to do. I should start folding my laundry.
I'm getting back my results soon, and I'm extremely nervous.
Lots of questions fill my mind and it's starting to affect my life. It can't be helped.


There are so many things I have to put down and walk away from.
But I feel that I'm not ready. But time is slowly slipping away. I don't wish to drag, but I have too much doubts I need to clear out.
I took granted of the privilege for being in a first world country, where living condition is good and where we can have education in a nice environment. We have new books easily obtained from book stores and computer to do our projects. We have buildings for us to stay in and proper clothes to wear. Food can be bought at nearby coffee shops or at restaurants or many other places.
I am aware that I'm in a very comfortable position, and will not need to worry much about money because my family earns enough, though I am not rich.
But I neglected these, and my responsibilities as a student and as a human being.
I forgot that I didn't come to this world with water within my reach and clothes in my wardrobe or teachers right at my doorsteps. My parents earn them for me. And one day, I will have to earn money for their needs and wants, like how they did.
I don't want to be a disappointment anymore.



I was very inspired when I read Rachel's blog. It's so nice for her to blog after a while although being quite busy.
I wonder if I will have a much meaningful day tomorrow. Weird.


Alright, shall go now. Goodbye readers!
Do I really have readers? Oh well nevermind.

I won't be blogging about 30 days of reflection today as I don't feel like it.


When one finally found out that what he have been chasing after for ages wasn't as amazing as he had imagined, he will feel lost, vulnerably trapped and clueless.
Some times in life, there are things that are so difficult to solve, so out of hand, so heartbreaking, so disappointing, so frustrating and these just keeps going on and on.
But some other times in life, there will be things so fascinating, so strangely delighting, so unthinkably beautiful, so heartwarming and these also keeps going on and on.


We meet different people everyday. We pass by people as we walk to our destinations, meet people at gatherings and neighbours living next door. So many ways to meet other human beings. It is extremely overwhelming when you found out the person you trust so much did not care, when the one you wish to be with doesn't think the same way, the one you do not want to be in contact with poke their noses into your businesses. I personally find humans scary. But I still believe we are all just the same inside, wanting love, friendship and kinship. No one is filled with hatred when he was born.




Clear account of what I did today:
I woke up early today and chatted a while with my sister as I have a packet of instant noodles.
She went out shortly to have her o level examination. God bless her. I had an hour nap as I stayed up late last night and was extremely exhausted. Woke up at roughly 9.30am, and prepared to meet Rachel for breakfast and dance training in the afternoon. I left house at 11am sharp, and reached Ang Mo Kip MRT station at about 11.30am. Rachel reached at 12pm, and we went to pepper lunch for breakfast. After that, we took bus 86 to school and reached school on time. We started the training. It was tiring but the dance is quite nice. I guess I'm looking forward to other dance lessons, but I need to train the warm up positions at home. I guess it was not as bad as I thought, as usually I dread going for dance trainings and, sometimes, don't turn up for practice. Well, I guess I'm not a good student, but I'm learning to. I took bus 852 home, and bought food on my way home. After dinner, I bathe and turn on my computer to relax. I am so worn out I will fall asleep once I lie down on my bed! It sure was a beautiful day. Don't we all love these days?


Cheers!

I am not willing to sharing my thoughts to people anymore. It gets all twisted up and passed around.



Tomorrow we will be going back to school to check our exam papers.
Naturally, most people will be worried and afraid. I know I am.
But a tiny amount of people are quite confident.

I get it now. I know what I want right now and I will walk towards that.


30 days of reflection.
Day 4, a habit you wished you didn't have.


I wish I don't keep watching shows on funshion and stay up late. :/