Morning all my beloved people! Today's SATURDAY! :)

30 Letters to be written:

Your Crush.

I am not gonna lie, I have super loads of crushes in my whole entire life.
And no I am not gonna write their names out.


When I was Primary one, I saw this good looking guy, and he's from my class.
So we were assigned to our seats, he sitting beside Lee Xuan, who is in front of me.
If you do not know who is Lee Xuan, go read my previous post on best friends.


I then found out his name is M_ _ _ _ _.
Then after the Wei Han incident, he is the only one willing to talk to me.
Don't know what's the Wei Han incident? It's just me accidentally cutting a boy's hand with a pair of scissors.

And then I transferred out of the school, to PeiXin.

During that period of time I am quite isolated from the crowd, and is paranoid by almost everything.
Well, then I saw this guy, L_ _ _ _.
He's quite nice, he's like a brother to me.
And there's this once I kind of wrote a compo with his name inside.
But that compo is about a guy kena hit by car, then people started saying I like him.

Well cause I was still young then, I didn't know what to do and I started to hide some where because I am afraid they will tease me.

Primary 3, I like R. Well, he's not handsome, not really a nice person either.
I must have really bad eyesight then.


Primary 4, I guess, L again?
This time no one realised.

Primary 5, I had a boyfriend. Well, I am a bit upset I am already attached when I am so young.

Primary 6, D and L. D being my ex boyfriend. The primary 5 one. -.-


Secondary 1, I guess this should be more interesting because I can remember this clearly.
J_ _ _ _ _ _ _. That's for the start of school. Then until March, I guess C?
Then W. Gosh I got so many crushes. :X I guess that's all.

Secondary 2, Start of the year I think don't have handsome guys in our school so I liked no one.
Oh and I made the worse mistake in my life. -.- You guys can guess what it is right. No need me to explain, just a waste of my precious time.
Then until few months back there's one guy that I guess I admired?
Well I guess that's all.

And no I won't be saying if I like anyone or not because I myself don't know.
I am just a confused little girl.

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Well it is hard to express your love for someone.
It is also hard to understand why after you expressed your love for someone, that someone doesn't appreciate it, and even kick you aside, and even talk bad about you.

You tried hard, and all you get back is hate.


Sometimes, you've got to understand.
Some people went through more hurt than you.
Their love for their someone is much stronger than your love for them.



Maybe mine is also too weak to touch his heart.
Maybe I am too unsure as well.
I guess I am really a stupid and dumb person.

30 pictures:

A picture of what you wore today.

NDP SHIRT! XD

I miss NDP, but I am glad it had ended cause now I have more time to rest. Especially on saturdays!


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This emotion seems cool. Hehehe.



Angell. I hope you're all giggling and happy!

For my daughter, Fiona!

I've never had a 'daughter' in my life, well I have to say this one is quite obedient!
She is wonderful because she gives me great advices, is beautiful, lively and most importantly hardworking.

Maybe I am not the best person in her life, or in anybody's, but I am glad that at times I am able to help her.


Whenever I have things that I am unsure of, I sometimes turn to her as she have great ideas.
She is creative, loves goldfish, great fashion sense and helpful.


All in all, she is wonderful!

Normally I would say she takes after me and stuff but well, she actually trained and learnt it herself.
She may also have a weak side, everyone do.
She may not be flawless, but no one is.


At least she is sensible, which makes a lot of things easier for me.
Being a mother is not easy, okay! :)


Lastly, a photo of my beloved! xD :





Don't she look cute?!
Love it when she ties up her hair and with bangs! xD



I hope God will bless her with happiness, and I wish she will be giggling everyday! :D


P.S.: There's another post (a long one) under this.
Be sure to check that out, alright? :D


Love, Angell.

30 Letters to be written:
Day 01 — Your Best Friend

I'm making this a challenge for myself (found from Fiona's blog) just so I can feel that my life isn't as wasted as I think it is. :)

To me, best friends are essential in life.
Best friends are someone whom you are able to speak your honest opinion to, or someone whom you are able to share your secrets with, or simply someone whom you can laugh or cry with.

People who have friends tend to live longer and happier.
God said,"It is not good for the man to be alone."
The man being all of us humans with feelings for this case.


Conflicts, betrayals, misunderstandings happens.
It can't be avoided, but it sure will strengthen your friendship.
Though too much of these might be unhealthy for the friendship.



I have several best friends in my life.
When I was primary one, I am super quiet and likes to keep to myself.
I had this friend, not my best but my only better friend, her name is Lee Xuan.
She had fair skin, long silky hair, with a sweet voice.
I always thought guys would only fall for her instead of me as she is so pretty and hardworking.
But little did I know, she was a backstabber.


We had this classmate that we both do not like.
Often, she would suggest we bully him.
As I do not want to lose her as my friend as she is the only one, I decided to join in.
I didn't want to miss out the fun either.


And there was this once, I accidentally injured that kid's hand with a scissors.
He started crying, and fear struck me.
We were then both (that boy and me) sent to the vice principal's office for questioning.
He said I purposely cut his hand, but I know I didn't.
I wasn't good in english back then, so when the teacher asked I mumbled 'intentionally'.
How unfair, she spoke to that kid in chinese, but english to me.
And when I return back to class, everyone thought it was my fault.
Lee Xuan, who knows the truth lied. She talked bad about me behind my back, but I heard it by accident. I was so hurt back then, and cried almost everyday.


Then our family moved house, and I left that scary place called school.


Hence during primary 2, I didn't make any friends.
But eventually I found one. I treated her as my best friend, but I don't think she did.
She's this stubborn, rich and spoilt girl.
I just tried to fit in her clique but failed.
So I went out with this cute girl with the name of Emily.
She's a nice girl, but sadly we weren't best friends after primary 3.


Then came primary 3, I got demoted to the third class. (Was in first class when primary 2!)
I met this girl call Min Wei, she is really beautiful, super duper long hair, fair skin, had sweet girly voice.


During primary 4, she purposely didn't tell me where to report for this singing competition that was held in school and 5 of us were to compete with 4 other teams.
She asked the reserve to take me place and told me that I didn't report on time so I am out.


I was so angry at her, after the competition I kept making use of her by dumping her when I don't need her and talking to her when she needed.
"She deserve this," was what I thought.
Now I think I was super mean. :/


I hung out with Fifi Syakina during primary 4, and she went with her malay friends during primary 5. :(


Primary 5 I started to hang out with Jody and Tiffanie, most popular people of all primary 5 pupils. (Got into second class that year, awesome!)
Well then I started playing maple as Jojo and Tiffy loved it.
Then primary 6, I started to become prettier... And crazier. :/
I became pretty, talkative, insulting and vain.
I thought I was the prettiest girl on earth, and that every guy will fall in love with me.
Ha, I was so crazy.


Then secondary one, I met Arin and JingYi.
We went separate ways after wards, Me with Arin, Weilin, Jesslyn and Carol.
Then me and Arin quarreled several times, and both kind of decided we weren't suitable to be best of friends.
So I started to hang out with Sherlyn Leo.
Well we had a fight and I hang out with I forgot who.
Then there was this period of time when I was close with Lishan.
Well then we don't talk for some time, and drifted, I guess.
Was super close to Rachel during this part of my life.


Then this year, I was hanging out with Arin and friends.
Then I went with Carol and Sherlynn Wong, right until now.
Well in between we did quarreled, but we made up, which is good.
Still friends with Rachel, although quarreled and almost became strangers.
Knew Fiona, and became closer to her recently.


Well from my birth till now, life is interesting and fun.
Sometimes it's frustrating, but still I have to cope with it.
Friends are important to keep your life wonderful.


Each individual has a crayon. Different people have different color, different shade of a color, different style. They color up your life, so you don't only have a color from your crayon, but many from different people you meet.

30 pictures:

Day 01- A picture of yourself.

Love, Angell. Wherever you are, I wish you're beaming with joy! :)

Ever imagined a hot guy who is your boyfriend and does romantic stuffs for you?
Hell yes I did.

And I know this guy doesn't exist.
Even though I wish he does.



I may have given up on love for several times, or think that love doesn't last or what so ever.
But I know there is love. I just need faith.
Still I decided to not wait anymore.
I just do not have the time to. Not that I don't believe love.
I think I have other things waiting for me. And they aren't going to wait for long.
I need to reach for it before it's too late.
And I might have missed my chance to getting true love long time ago, or maybe my Mr Right still haven't come yet.
But it does not matter now.


So these few days I have been busy with my sickness.
I guess I haven't been taking care of my health recently so I have to now cause tomorrow's NDP already and I should be proud of it.
To be able to take part.
To be able to shine.


Heck yes I am beautiful inside out.

Hadn't life always been like this?

Guess what.
I am sick.


Well it sucks to be sick since I want to puke so bad.
But then I guess this is some sort of vacation for me to be away from the drama.
And the drama are most likely found in school.
So yeah, I am going to enjoy this.
Will return to school tomorrow.


I know I should stop yapping about all the bad things in life, and I know I don't deserve it.
But I can't decide my destiny.
Maybe it is for me to understand more stuffs.
I always hoped for these, hoped for that.
I never enjoyed what I have.

Why am I being so negative out of the sudden?


Gonna sign off, bye.